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Name: mai
Gender: Female
Interests: lots of stuff...i'll tell you when i feel like it
Expertise: i know everything and nothing all at the same time
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
3/7/2005
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is it that when i'm 100 % certain that i want something, when i'm
actually decisive enough to make a decision, and when my heart and my
head agree what's for the best, it is precisely those things i
can't have?
*life is unfair
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| physics will be the death of me...as will poli sci
i hate my english teacher with a fiery passion
why didn't i do the extra credit paper??? why!?!??!?
history, you are the only one that loves me....
*cries and hopes it will soon be over*
and so the onslaught begins...on monday
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| it's getting too
close to graduation...i'm not ready yet!!!!! eeeeek!!! what? huh?
cap and gown...for what? what do you mean i have to
leave????
what a bummer...i
have this messed up feeling where i desperately want to leave now but
don't want to leave yet at all. a week and a half left now...a
week and a half. now is not the time to hide away and study; i'm
supposed to be making the best of times with my friends!! but no...i
have to hide away so that i can study...what the?!@#?!>$ *sigh*
on
another note...last firday wasNolan prom which was fantabulous!
judy kim and kim looked so great! it was awesome to see hegeman and
stix again, and will hernandez and joe, and can't forget mary who
looked like a goddess or katie schmidt who looked yummy enough to eat
:P i won't forgive liz chan for ignoring her date hahaha jk
jk oh and i never knew you could dance jude!!!! it was
fun...a little stuffy on the dance floor which was entirely too tiny
for everyone, the food wasn't great but you know what? none of that
matters because i was there with my friends and you guys are the light
of my life. i like dressing up...it makes you feel so confident
and purdy :P oh and if any of you guys have pictures...could you
send them to me via email? that would be great!
oh
and sunday was the Viet protest at UTA....that was...interesting....we
aren't the kind of people who are easily riled up...and it ws freaking
hot. DOWN WITH MICHAEL MOORE...hahahha there was this one very
enthusiastic old man who kept yelling that...it was hilarious!!!
haha...teheee...i dont think i'll ever understand protests that
well...can't people handle things in a more....civilized?...
manner? jk jk protests are what this country's is
built upon...they make living conditions nicer i suppose...
ok...so finals are
coming up...i dont want to take them...but who does? but i can't
fail now can i? so it's off to hit the books (hopefully) so that
i'll pass with flying colors.
oh
right...and it seems i'm headed off to TCU...bummer...but i will see
cali in perhaps two years? if i graduate that early *crosses fingers in
dire hope*
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| list of accepted colleges:
- Baylor
- TCU
- Southwestern
- UCLA
- UCSD
however this is the list choices i'll consider:
- TCU
- UCSD
This is the list of colleges i can pay for from the choices that i consider:
- TCU
BUT!!!!!!
i can't go there...i have realized that i'll be miserable if i go
anywhere but my first choice college which is UCSD. Do you know
what a terrible thing it is that money must determine where you
go...well money and parental issues too.
here's the
deal: My mom says that if i go out-of-state, she'll worry more.
ie she can't visit me readily if i get sick over in cali. She
will worry her head off because i'm not near her. I can't rely on
my parents for help when i need them if they're so far away. She
says i'll need a car...and that i can't yet take care of myself.
i need another two years of guidance she says.
my rebuttal:
i've already been livign away from home for two years...granted i do
come home at least once a month but you still dont come running to
comfort me every time i have a slight cough or fever. i'm pretty
sure these two years at TAMS worried her and my dad more me being so
young and all but i still went didnt i? as for reliance...well
i'll be in college, i'm supposed to be asserting my independence, i'm
supposed to rely on myself, make my own mistakes for once and not be
guided by their hand (as loving and caring as they are...they have to
let go). the one point i do understand is the car issue....i
really do need to learn how to drive properly...heck i dont even have
my license yet.
How am i supposed
to grow up and depend on myself if they're always there to do it for
me? how will i learn without my own personal experience? i've
written all this and forgotten alot of other things i wanted to say....
so i'll let this be all for now.
p.s. if any of you
want to give me money/send me scholarship info that maybe i havent
found yet/give me some advice/or even just a hug....please do...i need
some comfort.
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